Monday, December 31, 2012

boo

Yeah, I see you both.

Nice one though!

 

closer

Come for me.  Or am I coming for you?
The fun has now begun.

How long are you here for?

 

curve ball- caught.....and he is busted! i sense you.

You are here.

Where exactly, I don't know.

I knew I felt you near.

Happy New Year!
I can't believe that you are here.

The question is, where?

Give me a sign. 

You are there

No matter where you are, I know where you are and that it is you that has come.

I feel you.

From worlds away, I can feel you.

Happy New Year.

Shall we meet on this plane or another...i will see you soon.

R?

Sunday, December 30, 2012

US

I see you there.  Keeping your breath near to me. Though what seems like worlds keeps us apart, I still feel you next to my.  Sharing a couple of smokes. Listening to Roger as he does what he does.  Laughing. Both of us.  Too clever for the other.  Creating heat. Passion.  So light and airy. Floating. Together. One.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

come to me

I miss you.  Your presence.  You left me for awhile. I had to contact you. I didn't contact her. Just you. Let me know that you are there. 

I need you near me.  I want to feel you.

I miss your voice.

I made it through my first semester at school. I made the Dean's list.  Doesn't that earn me something? 

How can I know that I influence you?

The kids are both "here" aren't they?  Studying?  Doesn't that make you need to come see them and check on them?

Doesn't that make it easy for you to visit the"City by the Lake"

It is getting cold out.  I need warming up.

A good smoke. A smoking buddy.

Come see me.

You know how to contact me.

<3

Friday, December 14, 2012

The Truth ALWAYS come out

As suspected, the truth was going to come out.

If any of you have been paying attention to things, you would know what I speak of.

And.....

It just so happens that my number one audience source some from .......you guessed it.....


scared perhaps??

It can be a dark lonely place, but then again, they always make friends!!!


;)

Friday, November 23, 2012

Silent Night

On nights that are silent like this, I find it hard to concentrate.

My  mind bounces from thought to thought, and you are always in them.

I want to feel you close to me.

I need to feel your touch.

I can not stand this loneliness

I crave you, oh so much

Come to me in the darkness

In the hours that I sleep

Bring to me generous pleasure

From happiness make me weep.

Warm me in the coldness.

Keep the harms away.

I will be entwined in you forever.

My passion will never stray.

Keep very close to me

And stick by my side

I am very weak for you.

My tenderness can not hide.

 

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

I just missed you.

I am now on fall break, but since I was extremely ill at the last part of the past week, I have lots of homework to get caught up on.

I needed you so badly last week.
I was so ill and all alone.

It was very lonely for me.

My roommate moved out, so it is just me to care for everything.
I need to hear your voice.

Please call me.

Want to go fly with me?  I was just about to lift off when I felt you beside me.

Sure enough,  you had just been here.

I wish to tell you something.
Come fly with me.

I will meet you there.

Sssssshhhhhhh........

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Staying safe through the night

As morning comes in the middle east and the threat of a ground war looms over the heads of so many, I still can't help but stop for a few moments to pray for peace.

Praying for peace

May the people of Israel find peace in their communities so that the young and old may be able to rest.

My heart goes out to those who are finding themselves or loved ones in the potential line of fire.

The world needs peace today as much if not more than ever before.

Millions of lives are in the path of harm, and peace needs to be made.

May peace come soon. 

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Need a rub down

I had such a hard time sleeping last night and I woke up today aching all over.  I think that the weather is already getting into my bones.

I need a relaxing massage and a nice long vacation.

I did see something yesterday while walking through the house as I glanced at the TV.
There was a car commercial on.

It was for Cadillac.

It was about a road race.
It was in a foreign country, and the car shown zips around the edges of the country on this road course.

I'm sure you can guess where the race is held.

BEAUTIFUL!!!!!

You were amazing last night!

Want to do it again tonight?

I will see you again on the other side.

We can break on through to the other side.

Come to me this time. I am always the one doing the traveling, and I want you to come get me this time.

See you then....  xo

 

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

babe............don't leave me now........

(whispers) *i feel you*


http://youtu.be/xPsPe0BLJPw

*ssssshhhhh...............*


*fly with me*





"How could you go?  When you know how I need you?

Monday, November 12, 2012

slip away

I have felt a distance from you, and sure enough, you are off again.

I will miss you and see you when you return!!

Be safe!

Friday, November 9, 2012

Truth be told...

Do you not think that I know that you are dangerous?  That you don't play games that you don't like to play....you like to play games with people like yourself.  When the opponent is as smart and as swift and as clever as you.....

When you are playing with danger yourself! That is your weakness.

You like danger.
Watching bombs go by turns you on so to speak.

Intelligence, my dear, is both a strength and a weakness.

Not being able to stop playing is going to be the trick.--For both of us!

You can't send a messenger to play your man in our game.

I'm haunting you.

I feel it.  Invoking both pleasure and anger in your blood right now.

The pleasure is overriding the anger isn't it?

It's ok!  You aren't used to playing with me yet.

You will get used to being my submissive.  You enjoy this submissiveness that you have been dying to let out.

You are full of so much pleasure.

Every time you breath in and out, you are rushed with pleasure.

I know that it wouldn't take much to send you over the edge and into a place where you have to release that pleasure.


Deeper and deeper into that pleasure with every breath.

Relaxing, calming pleasure.

Releasing all of your stress

Let all of your stress go
Breath in the pleasure

Exhale the stress- let it go where it needs to go

Feel that pleasure increase ten fold every time you see the word pleasure.

PLEASURE

PLEASURE

PLEASURE

I bet that you would like to release this pleasure wouldn't you?

Sorry.  You can't do that.

Not until I say that you can.

PLEASURE

I bet that you are squirming right now aren't you?

PLEASURE

Are you ready for me to permit you to release this pleasure?

OK

PLEASURE
PLEASURE
PLEASURE

You May RELEASE YOURSELF NOW

You will feel so much better once you have fully relaxed and released all of this pleasure through your body.

You may relax now.
I want to keep you on your toes.

We will play more later

I'm off to LD land.
 

Time for bed

I am off to sleep, and I hope to find you in my dreams when I get there.

My days are lonely and getting cold when I don't feel you near me.

I want to feel your touch. To smell you next to me as I sleep.  To fall asleep with my head on your chest so that I fall asleep with the sound of your heart beat softly in my ears as I drift off.

Goodnight and sweet dreams.....

rae

Feel better when you are near

You must have had a busy day yesterday.
I missed you near me.

I woke up feeling you near me. I felt protected.

I wish we didn't have ponds that separated us.
The distance is a painful distraction.

My apartment is lonely at night when spent all alone.

When will you show me you are there?

I need to feel you.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Good Morning

Was I accurate or what??

If I had one, it would be hard.

and I'd use it!!!!!

Plane flight

Call the air lines.

I am out of class until Monday.  You can be here by morning for me.

Go to the city by the lake.

Come directly to my place.  There is an airport here.  I will pick you up.

We will break in my place.  Every room!!

I'm going to draw you a picture.  I think that you were looking at me when it was taken. 

You tell me!!

light it up.....get sky high!!

You get me closer.....

P.S.-

She would never know!!


ssshhhhhhhh.........

Up to date

I'm keeping you up to date.....if you haven't noticed.

Lastnight, two states legalized marajuana for personal use......I think that is how it is working.....  I haven't read up on it all.

Have you been dreaming about me?

When you get up, you will sit on the couch and smoke and have your laptop on, working. 

You will check here first. 

I AM the FIRST thing on your mind in the morning.

I want to see you.....

I want to taste a smoke on your lips...

Can I come to you?

We could meet.  In "our" city!  In the city by the Lake!

You need to come here.  I want to teach you some things.

Maybe you can teach me a thing or two as well.

You should start a blog.

name your blog these three riddles

1.)your favorite city to visit- I don't think that it is far from you.  it's an A listers city.  Better than vegas.  It's at the top of the list-in the phone book!

2.)The abbreviation to the person's name/title/profession/major that I see monthly. (HINT-the word MAJOR).......NOT *_h D.   (has a "k" sound at the end)

3.)your gender. 

I can't wait to start communicating!!

my heart is beating rapid.

wet!

Feel you there

I feel you there watching over me.

I had class today and wasn't able to concentrate on your presence.

I am heading to class now.  English.  Three hour lecture. 

When are you going to come for a visit?

I often see you.  You are leaning against your car smoking outside of my apartment when I pull into my parking spot.

I approach you.  You don't move.  I press against you.  We kiss.  I can taste your cigarette on your lips.  I can feel you as I lean into you.


You still don't let me know that you are there.  I just know that it is you.

Have you figured out my riddles from my last post?

I know that you are smart. 

Am I in your mind when you wake up?

What about when you go to sleep?

I miss hearing your voice.

Can I email you my phone number?

Comment me on any of my posts.  Anonymous even.  I will know it is you.

I have to go to class.

I'm thinking of you.

Put in some PF.  have a smoke.  both. 

When I get out of class and back home, it will be 6am your time. 

I will see you in LD land.

 

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

What do you have in mind? or should I say "up your sleeve...!!"

Just a rant of random thoughts at a random time for a random reason.

Or maybe it's not all that random at all.........


Yeah, I might be paranoid, but I bet your paranoia is worse.

.........yes, I'm talking to you!


I have tried contacting you because I know something.  Something that you would like to know.  Something that you ought to know. 

What makes up US?  Is it you?  Is it me?

High!!!!  How are you?  Good!!!!!

I'm about to take a nap.  I had a very lucid dream that took me to an obe that I would like to experience again.  I went blue.  I would love for you to join me.  Let me on your thought wave.

You are smoking.  I might light up myself.  Have a small chat with you over coffee.  No need to run off so quickly.  I'm in no hurry.  Well??????.......  /;o)

How have you been?  You never stopped thinking about me.  I have always felt you there.   I went without talking to you to see if I was right??!!

I was!!

You would not leave me.  No matter the threats.  You are obsessed. 

"Possessed", maybe??

Show me that you are there.

Make another deposit-same info.

even a Euro.

Show your face!!

or.........

show me more!!!

you have my number.......   you can text/bbm me a picture to let me know that you ARE THERE!!!


follow along with me.  I will see you on the other side!!!!
http://youtu.be/vFKMmo9vUsM

As I finish my smoking, I focus my intentions for a specific lucid dream where I meet up with a partner on the AP to go obe with another and meet on the same plane.

Nov. 6, 2012 10:02am Eastern time. USA!

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Passing time

So, I am laying here in my bed all night and aside from going shopping this morning, I have managed to crawl back into my bed and let memories that we made find their way back to my mind.

rae 
It is so HOT to know that you are there watching me.  I know that it isn't her....

It's him.

Should I be worried?

Will I have a knock at my door?  Not by a messenger, that's for sure.  He will come himself!

I know that you are there.  I feel your energy in my room. All around me.  I knew you were around when I came here. I can now really feel you close.

Please don't go.

Show me signs when you are here in the AP. (a-plane)  I want to join you in that place.

I will see you soon

rae.

love song

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=ltMrM-ilqqs

I will secretly love you yesterday, today, and tomorrow.  Oceans and galaxies can not separate me from your heart.

I will forever keep your love tucked away on a safe shelf that I will often pull out and dust off to go through the memories of the time we shared.


rae.

Monday, October 29, 2012

New LEASE in life

Well, I'm mostly all moved in to my new place, and it feels wonderful to not have to answer to anyone.
Life has given me a lot of calm lately, and I can't be more grateful than I am right now for that calmness that I have found.
I have a lot to do with the current direction that my life is heading.  I am in the routine of exercising and meditating daily, and I have cut almost all by-products out of my diet, and I have most of all recognized the toxic parts of my life and I have changed those liabilities into assets by setting goals, rules and expectations and integrity for myself.  I have to live with myself forever, and for the majority rule, people in my life have more say so over my life than I did, and I had to change that.  I had to start putting an emphasis on what was important to my future needs.  I needed to keep in mind my personal beliefs.  I had realized that I had all but lost myself in a toxic world that I got swallowed by.
Once my eyes could adjust to seeing the real truth for where I was, it was then that i was able to make great positive strides in my life.
My future is extremely bright and has so much waiting ahead for me.

I can't wait for it to all unfold.

I'm going to many new and exciting places that I've never been.



USELESS BIT OF INFORMATION PUT HERE FOR NO REASON: You can purchase a prepaid cell phone and a prepaid visa/ MasterCard to pay for"untrailed" international calls. 

Friday, September 7, 2012

Letting Love Leave

I wonder if the aching is mutual.

Are you really gone?

My entire body is overcome with a rsh of energy.  I lean back, and I feel your chin as it sits on my shoulder watching over me as I type.  You are here with me.  I feel you. 

The secret is safe with me.

http://youtu.be/JOo2QxJJKvs